NO MATTA WHAT SHIT HAPPENS, I GET THROUGH, AND IT AINT THE END OF THE WORLD

I am so so so bored it is spring break and I havent done one single thing.  This is no fault of my own though my mom turned into super protector and wont let me do anything.  My friends are getting all pissed at me when there really isnt shit I can do.  What makes it all worse is how nice it is outside.  Well thats all.  Im going to go talk to Tony now at least i can do that now without getting all giggly and dumb.

I know that right now my mind is completely consumed with the perfectness of this man and that in a couple of days when the initial first impreshion wears off im gonna find some fault in him.  But right now I want to fucking marry Tony this is the sexy nigga i meat at that St. P-Day party.  I just got off the phonw with his fine ass and he is too perfect to be real.  It worries me a little cause just by talking to him on the phone I loose my mind and once its over with im like what happened.  Im worried cause Im starting to sound like them dumb ass girls who meet a guy one day and say they r in love the next and i dont want to be one of them girls who puts up with shit cause she thinks she's in love.  Right now Tony is seeming like the shit and i am sure as hell going to keep getting to know him but i gotta watch myself so i dont wind up jumping his sexy ass bones.

This very special day gets two entries.  The first was really just an update but the second is fairly recent like as of right now.  I just got done talking to my friends (i guess) we made up.  But what is really going to change it seems to me like they arent really my friends.  It's like I'm just that girl that always hangs around that they can make fun of but i wont get offended cause we're friends.  Or I'm that girl who we can talk about with each other but not talk to her.  Thats one thing that i dont really get.  They like to keep secrets from me.  They like to know things that I dont and it isnt like they keep it to themselves.  They tell me that there is something that they are talking about but that i just cant know.  They like to do things and let me know they are doing them but then not invite me along.  And it is really pathetic of me to stay being friends with them because any other person wouldn't.  Maybe it's just because I've been friends with them for too long.  What i really need to do is sit and talk to them but if i did they would probably laugh in my face tell me to quit being a lame or a loser and get over it.  I'm being a stupid bitch now.

Well I finally happened,  St Patricks Day is of course the drinking holiday so me and my two buddies went to this party.  The one friend who i mentioned in a previous blog that i wasnt really getting along with went there just to get drunk.  Who the fuck does that shit, people with issues thats who.  Y r u going to go somewhere 4 the soul purpose of getting drunk.  N e wayz so after we are there 4 like and hour or two she's tipsy.  Then she comes up to me and starts cussing me the fuck out.  Tellin me all this shit about myself and how she don't like me and all this other shit.  Now I know that she is drunk and all but when ur drunk u dont just come out of nowhere with stuff like that cause she didnt say shit like that to no one else.  So me and here is officially through with and just as i predicted my other friend chose her side and went along with her.  I am now out of two best friends which is sad cause we been cool for the longest and im still not really sure what it is that i did to make her hate me like she do.  She's on some elementary school shit now and im too old for that so if she's going to be a bitch about it then maybe it wasnt that good of a friendship after all and especially with friend #2 if she can just quit on me like its nothing then she definately wasnt a good friend to begin with.  N e wayz on a lighter note at that very same party i met the finest mother fucker i have ever seen in my life.  Finer than ANYBODY.  We spent the whole time together before the incident and a little after too.  He ended up driving me home he is sweet as can be too.  But i gave him my number and get this he called me as soon as he got home from dropping me off it was like 3 in the morning but it was koo.  I was just like wow we spent a whole party together and u still wanna talk to me so that made my whole fuckin week and made me forget about my suck ass "friends for a good minute"  Ima see him again this weekend though he wants to go mini golfing cause i said that i had never been.  Its cold but he knows somewhere where u can minigolf inside.  Its alright with me though we could go to a fuckin garbage dump and i would still be good.

Once again I have another reason why gurlz suck.  So at my school that remains nameless i got my two best friends who are cool as fuck.  But sometimes they just do shit and I dont know why.  The first friend is judgemental, hypocritical, and just fucking annoying.  Whenever I have something to say it's always nobody cares Aaralyn but then any other day if there is something i really dont want her too know she's all in the business and has to add her fucking opinion.  Not only does she add her opinion but then she tries to tell me what i "need" to do to make it better.  Then the next day she'll act like she dont even know me and that i just get on her nerves so fucking much.  She has too many fucking mood swings sometimes i wanna beat her ass, and she knows it.  The other friend is cool most of the time the only thing with her is that she's more of a follower and when I say follower I mean follower of the first buddy.  If me and the first one ever got into a fight I know for a fact that she'd pick sides and it wouldnt be me maybe she isnt really that great of a friend after all.  Girls are too fucking complicated and annoying thats why I try to only keep a few around and now even they is pissing me off.  And in case any of the readers of the first blog where wondering about the ex boyfriend well ends up we're pretty cool now. He cheated on me and I dont play that shit but I realized I wasn't feelin him as much as I though I probably liked his car more than him.  Him doin that dumb shit was a good excuse for me to break up with the mother fucker.  I think he knew I wasnt feelin him anymore anywayz.  But what he did was he came to my house in his car (I was so happy to see it) with my favorite food and some flowers.  Then he let my drive it (he really knows how to get to me) and then we talked and shit.  I remember that we was real cool before we dated and that this guy is like my fuckin best friend.  It'll take a real long time before shit is totally cool with us but we're talkin and I dont wanna fuck his shit up anymore.  The bitch that he fucked though I still dont like her fuckin ass.  She gonna come up to me talkin some what did you tell David and why do he be actin like he dont wanna talk to me.  I said because ur a fuckin slut and he just wanted to fuck you cause i was mad at his ass and wouldn't do him.  She had some more words but i dont got time for bitches so i had ta go.  Thats it though thats the update enjoy.